Tuesday 6th January 2009


This morning I woke at 6am and lay there thinking about the dream I had just had. For some reason I had dreamt that I had bitten my nieces face and then fallen out with my sister. Very strange as I hardly ever dream, and never about hurting people especially not my family who I love more then the world.
7.40am I jumped out of bed saying to my hubby “I’ll get it ready babe and then call you”. So out came my bag of tricks and I set up the syringe pulled the drug out of the bottle and wiped my tummy with the alcohol wipe and thought right, I’m going to do this myself, all on my own.
I held the needle close to the wet clean spot and STOOD there. I can’t, I really can’t SHIT, Why the hell not, why can’t I do this? It’s only a needle. I tried again and again and still NO. So in I went to Ross, “With a snap I shouted I can’t do it , GET UP NOW, and bless him he wakes up and looks all confused , so I said it again, even louder “JUST DO IT for me now”. Well he didn’t moved quick enough so I moaned at him again.
Still sleepy he got up and tried to help me whist I was moaning at him constantly. Then he stuck me, SHIT this time it hurt and I looked down and the needle wasn’t in correctly, and it was really starting to sting, stinging quite bad for a little needle. I shouted at him “Well push it in then, Oh get off ill do it”. Bless him he looked confused, sleepy and upset. So not a good start today.
Oh and I can’t stop farting and they smell bad, and I also have a horrible taste in my mouth, so here we go with the side effects then they are starting to kick in already, Hummmm great just what I need.