Saturday 17th January 2009

Arrrrhhhh…………….., Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck and I may as well through a bollox in as well, Its bloody ironic isn’t it and bloody being the right word. I said it would happen. I’ve started bleeding and it’s heavy. JUST MY LUCK, and I felt so good yesterday and didn’t have any signs at all, no cramps, no rage, no nothing. I just can’t believe it.
Well they do say this could happen and is quite normal so it’s nothing to worry about, but I wanted to be one of the lucky ones who didn’t have to bleed. Oh bollox, NO CHANCE.
Still not to worry really cause I am on track with the treatment , and the injections are becoming second nature, I don’t even worry about them now. Although I am looking like a pin cushion and I’m very surprised that all the fluid I drink don’t come pouring out of all my little needle holes. Hum how embarrassing would that be?
I am feeling really brave and I am contemplating doing my own jab in the morning or at least giving it a go, and in a strange way I am quite excited about it. I think it helps when there is no pressure because Ross really don’t mind doing it, he really is a wonderful husband and I am very lucky to have him. And in a strange way I think he does quite enjoy giving me the injection, not because he wants to hurt me but because he feels part of the process and he is helping me, hummm should I take this one bit of responsibility from him??, God help……! I hadn’t really thought about it like that until now, SHIT.
I have got to go for a scan on Thursday to see if my ovaries have been suppressed. Funny enough it is called a suppressed scan. If they have I will then be ready for the next stage of the treatment which is when it really starts getting interesting. I will be given another lot of drugs to inject daily which is a FSH Follicle stimulating hormone called Gonal F. This will over stimulate my ovaries to make then produce more follicles then normal, and hopefully lots of eggs will be in these follicles, fingers crossed. I do in all honestly think I should be ok at producing more eggs, because I have always produced lots before in my IUI treatments. Come to think of it I remember producing eight eggs on just my right ovary, so I am pretty relaxed and chilled about this part coming up. Bring on Thursday.