Thursday 29th January 2009

What a strange day!!!!! and I’m quite unsure how on earth I have got through it with out a really serious problem occurring. You see it started bad right from the word go. The injections were bizarre. The first needle wouldn’t penetrate the skin. You should have seen Ross, he looked like he was trying to drill through a wall. He kept pushing ,and pushing. He was pushing that hard he was breaking into a sweat. I thought he was going to go and get his hard hat and safety goggles. Eventually he did get the needle into my skin, and straight away a nice blue bruise appeared and then a cool trickle of blood ran down my tummy. “Great, well done baby you done that just perfect……….now try and massacre me with the other one” I snared at him. And to avoid disappointment he did. “For Fu@k sake, What the hell are you doing?, I shouted at him. So I now have two long red streaks of blood rolling down my VERY swollen, rock hard tummy.
Four days on this new drug and I look like I am four months pregnant. I am also very heavy and sore in my ovaries. Bur what really concerns me is my mashed up mind and the feeling of being so so tired, Well quite frankly totally SPACED OUT !
I was convinced the boiler had broken today. So I rang Ross and made him ring his plumber mate and get him round to fix it, Lucky for me he was to busy and couldn’t fit us in today because I had ran a full bubble bath with the cold tap. Then I nearly killed one of the dogs. I had gone round and done all my household duties, very slowly today I must say, it was go slow snail pace. I was on my final task, putting the washing on the rads, and I bloody hate this one at the best of times. I got to the last item and hung it carefully over the radiator. Great, JOB DONE. Until I tried to put the radiator case back on, and blow me it wouldn’t fit. I was pushing it and re angling it and banging it. Why the hell is this not fitting? I thought. I started getting hot and the hot flush was appearing and my stress levels were rising. I really started losing it and pulled the rad case back off in a huff, and saw the dog. SHIT he was sandwiched between the rad and the cover and I was squashing him in. Bless him he didn’t even yelp to let me know. He just sat there with this lonesome look on his little face, my poor little baby. Then there was the not so serious problems that cropped up. Like pouring orange juice in my tea instead of milk, and rewashing the washing twice. Why? I don’t know, I just switched the machine on again, and before I had realised it was already half way through it’s cycle.
So spaced out is quite a good word to describe the side effects, however my wonderful hubby described me to a friend when he was on the phone to him today as “ She’s not right today, in fact she is acting like a right wrongen”. Sooooo thank you Ross and yes I was listening, BUSTED SUCKER!!!
I am just hoping tomorrow will start better, I have my appointment at Hammersmith for my blood test and we will be leaving very early. We need to get to the hospital by 7am, and I can’t wait until it is all over. So definitely early to bed for me tonight !