Sunday 25th January 2009

Well it was like see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil in my house this morning, the worrying thing is I was the one being evil. All three of my dogs ran, Scooby hid behind the sofa, Scruff hid under the bed and Preston, well poor little Preston tried to join Scooby but he is too fat to fit, so his bum was sticking out of one end of the sofa, bless him. I was on the war path, and I have been on the slippery slop to angry Ville today. I kicked Ross out of the house and told him to go and get the food shopping while I tidied up. I really was cross. I went round the house mumbling, bloody this….. And…. shitty that. Then I decided I was cold, and it was Ross’s fault, because he hadn’t got any coal for the fire, so I wore my scarf round the house all day, WHY? I don’t know!!, just to be bloody award I suppose. To top it all off all this fuss and bad feeling is to do with one silly thing. Wait for it………it’s because, well your never going to believe it,……….. in fact your properly going to want to section me, OK, it’s because, here we go………… I DON’T want to recycle anymore, haha what am I doing? I told you I’ve gone mad. I don’t want to recycle anymore so I hate the world.
Well that’s it, I pulled myself together, because these drugs are not going to start doing this to me, not NOW. So I made my peace and apologised to Ross, and gave the dogs a lovely cuddle, and I pulled myself together like I said I was going to do, and focused on tomorrow, you see we start our new drugs, and that in turns means we start the next stage of the IVF, yes that is a really good feeling. I have been giving the new needle pen that is full of the drug Gonal F and told to use the dose of 150 each time, but I have to also keep doing the other injection that I do every morning, so now I’m going onto two injections in the morning, or should I say ROSS is now having to do two injections on me every morning, You see I’m still being a chicken and not injecting myself yet. I have to take this new drug for 12 days, with a blood test on Friday and two more scans in between and then if all is on track I will have my eggs harvested after that, so nearly there. God in two weeks they are going to put two embryos back in my womb, which means I will be pregnant with twins, Now it is really happening. All I can say is YES, YES, YES…………..!!!