Monday 19th January 2009

Blar blar blar blar blar, people are talking but I just can’t hear them, you see whatever they are saying just isn’t important to me. My head is spinning and full of…………., hum well thoughts, just going round and round and round. I just want to stand up and scream “for god sake someone hug me” “I need a bloody hug.”
I’m scared and hurting today and all I want is a hug, and yes I will cry and properly for hours once I start., but today there is no one there ready or up for the challenge, so I don’t stand up and I don’t shout, and I don’t cry, but I still worry and feel scared, and hope that tomorrow will be better.