Sunday 18th January 2009


You know it’s just occurred to me how caring and wonderful I really am. I am the greatest wife in the world, its taken me 10years to realise this, but I really am. God I am a bit slow, but shit I’m the best., “and the winner of the next category of ……………caring wife in a million goes to…………………ME!!! The room erupted with applause and the whistling and cheering, people were even banging their feet. I could here people saying “she really is fantastic” and “wow what a women”, men where saying “god if only she was mine”. I finally reached the stage to collect my trophy and my smile was beaming and I felt so proud of myself. You see what I did this morning was the most caring thing I could have done for Ross, whit for it…………..I didn’t take away his responsibility, his one main job of chief needle pricker. Just how considerate am I?
Hummmmm actually I bottled it. Yet again I couldn’t do it, what is this mental barrier I have? You know it really does make me laugh, all it is is a little needle prick. It’s not like I have to slam my hand in the door, or smack myself in the face with a hammer, it’s just one tiny needle, God what a wuss I am.
Despite me failing with this injection again this morning and still bleeding like a pig I feel great still. I can’t understand how lucky I really have been so far. Everyone I have spoken to have told me how the drug Burslin had sent them mad and made them act like a crazy witch. I think I have stayed quite calm really, my family might tell you different, but I really don’t think so. I am the best……..? I know I’ve had some up and down days but nothing to horrendous that it has made me want to pack it all in. So bring on the sleepless nights and dirty nappies, I AM READY.